A Piscean's Psychology

Monday, December 15, 2008

Me in the Spirit

ok, YISS over!
din want it to end really.
it was inspiring...

here's a sort of day to day stuff, more for my benefit than anything else
so i dun forget, but i'll try to keep it short and to the pt...

day one.
met Gab for breakfast at macs, thanks Gab for showing me how to get to the place.
I still think you shd have gone though.
ok, so went there around 9, found out I had to pay 55 bucks, and I only had 30..
luckily, my bro was there(though it was kinda his fault in nt telling me i had to pay so much.)
then ppl was like, "OMG! you're Don's sis?!"
Then this girl brought me up to the girls' dorms and she was shouting that to everyone on the way up. -.-'

Apparently i was early, there were 10 rooms in the girls dorms and the 1st one wasnt even filled yet and I ended up being the last roomie.

ok, so, we played ice-breaker games and then was spilt into grps, was in st francis of Assisi.
so... lets see.. er, played more games?
charades and captain fruit n trust game.
would have loved to play water wars but it was raining. too bad...
had royce chocs! and at night watched this video called, nooma:rhythm. an interesting view of how you think you know God n u're all holy when u actually aren't 'in tune' with it or you think you dunno anything but u are in fact 'in tune'... i realise im not giving a clear explanation.. and when i went on youtube, this is the only thing i found, 'http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FvavMG-HKdQ' it's a preview and not the whole thing, you can watch it i guess.
hmm.. I actually can't rmb wad else happened on day one...

nvm.. day 2
this guy called Martin gave a really good talk about Healing and a bit about the gifts.
He was an interesting speaker, i tink it was he who talked about hate is not the opposite of love, the opp of love is indifference. in order to hate, you have to love, an insight to all i feel..he also gave quite a few testimonies. it was really good. I just love the one abt his 3 yr-old godson who healed him and prohecised when his baby sis wld be born. a 3 yr-old, already using the gifts...impressive...i cant do him justice on this blog so u all shd just come for the camp. haha

ok, so... b4 the healing session started, we watched another nooma video:lump, and it just made me cry, well, silent sobs lah, but still, it was so touching.. i advice all to watch!! it's really good! but watch it at night with the lights off, i think you might feel it more... 10 mins..

then healing session, i rested in the spirit b4 at the hearts in fire rally at cj so i really wanted to rest again, it's like u feel so so light after u fall. ok, then the facils came into the room and started praying over us.. a group came over to me and started to pray... i cried alot, never rested though. I guess i felt a little disappointed?? but ah, i had a vision(explain later)... I sat down and moved closer to my groupmates who were already prayed over. talked a little abt our experiences...

Melvin(1st pic, he reminds me of L) saw the outline of Jesus and Ben(2nd pic) saw a rainbow(might have meant a new beginning.)... i didnt share my vision coz i thought i was just day dreaming..
At the end of the session, a found out alot of ppl din rest in the spirit either, some reason that cheered me up, then it was testimonies. JoJo frm drama went up and shared, haha, he cld hardly keep composed, he was like so happy, he kept screaming 'woohoo!' and he jumped lah. woah! the spirit affected him so much.. was happy for him.

on a side/sad note, one of my roomie had to leave coz she wasnt feeling well.. but the rest in the room felt that there was more to it and so, we prayed and smsed her encouragements. then it was now down to two 16 yr olds, two 18 yr olds and two 20++ yr olds.. i think we were the onli room that shared so much stories at night lah, not all God-related, but most were...

oh, i rmb a reading from 1 Cor 14... the passage is an answer to a qns/discussion i had with justin ages ago, he said at city harvest, ppl pray in tongues To talk To God, i said, ppl pray in tongues coz they're msgs From God and we have an interpretator in the midst as well...
so in 1 cor, we're both right... line 22 says 'So then, the gift of speaking in strange tongues is proof for unbelievers while the gift of proclaiming God's message is proof for believers." interesting huh?! Cats shd read line 23 onwards, I bet most of them wld grin/laugh... (Yes Gabby, u shd go get the Bible, seriously.)

day 3!!
OutPouring!!! the best thing of the day!! we had sessions the whole day about the gifts of the Holy Spirit... My bro gave a talked about it too, it is like the breath of God. in Genesis 1, you read of a wind that moved through the earth (later editions say 'spirit of God'), but then where cld this wind come frm other than the breath of God, and when he created man, Gen 2:7 he breathe living breath into the body. so yea, we have the Holy Spirit in us already, it's the gifts that we have problems opening. cool huh, then he shared to diff ways of saying 'hello' to the Spirit like aloha(it means the sharing of breath) and Hongi! (The New Zealand way, right Gab?)

okok, so, outpouring rite, they said that we had to be healed spiritually/emotionally for one to fully embrace, which is what we did lah, then we had Quiet Time to try to listen to God. Becoz, for years, God was like a Chaffeur, he was asked to do what we want. But he is the master, y are we treating him like a slave? It was time to let God really take the wheel and we do want he wants us to or at least where he leads us to, coz he gave us free will to follow or not.

However ah, I don't do good in Quiet Time, i daydream ( I mean, come on, i travel to n fro from CJ, all QTs are daydreams.), so i prayed... to Mary, it had been awhile, n it just so happened that they were giving out rosaries in the morning, haha. So ya, went to the Grotto and prayed.

Next thing, you wouldn't believe it, a REPLY!!! in a song! ok... so maybe not a reply yet, it was actually a qns, my qns to God. I was restraining myself thruout the camp, but I didnt know what to let go... and the song was like an old westlife(i tink) song.. i cld hum the song but the words that i cld hear were this, i noe one part had the words, "Find that special place, you're flying w/o wings.'

"How wld u know
which one to let go,
and to make you complete..."

ok, yea, so that was my qns in a song... then the answer came like 20 mins later, same tune, but this time diff words.

"So why don't u try,
try to let go,
n to make you complete..."

I was stunned! I noe you wld sae, that that isnt much of an answer coz i din noe what to let go, but somehow i knew, i just knew. so, for the 1st time in my 18 yrs of existence, i stopped n listen n got an answer..

ok, so outpouring started, it was like the healing session but way way more powerful, i mean, ppl were already falling b4 the facils even went to them to pray over them. Spontaneous resting! they just fell, no one to catch. Then a group came to pray over me, and i started bawling, coughing, going breathless... yes... that dramatic... then i heard one of them say, "God loves you, he never left you, just let go."

Let Go! just like the song, i calmed down, just like that, totally stopped crying. and after a moments of them praying over me in tongues, i was slain n rested in the spirit. Then I saw a vision, same as the one i got from the healing. It was a vision of me in a room full of ppl and everyone ard me was falling down or sitting down, just me standing.(Will tell u what it means later)

The guy in front asked some of us to stand, i cant rmb y.. but i rmbed standing and then another grp came to pray over me, n this time i didnt bawl, maybe teared up a little, but was generally calmer and i was slain a second time n rested.. this time i had another vision, of a tree and its roots growing longer n longer. i seriously tot i was day dreaming. but who day dreams of this things??

oh ya!! wait, i nearly forgot, i asked God to, if it was his will, give me the gift of tongues(though i was more interested in interpretating it) and initially i didnt get it. after I rested, i sat up and prayed, and I heard Melvin's voice, he was talking in tongues (oh, n btw, he's a non-catholic/free thinker... kinda shows u dun have to be one to hear God.) And i listened to melvin and suddenly i started talking in tongues, baby tongues.

Later during sharing, he shared his vision, like a painting, backgrd was ocean, foregrd was a forest n in the middle a flower, n it was on fire. my facil explained that it cld mean that it was his burning passion for God n it wld affect the ppl ard him aka the forest. Then i was thinking, hey, i was part of that forest, n coz i heard him, i was affected. heehee..

ok, then i shared my visions.. with my facils and later my brothers(ya, both of them were at the camp, they were facils too.)
1)me in a rm, everyone falling/sitting - authority, a leadership role..
ok, me in leadership roles, i get it, but a God-related leadership role? er, God, you serious?? i hardly noe anything, nv even read the Bible!

2)roots of a tree growing - faith n foundation in God is deepening.
Ok, i get the msg...

and tats it. my confusing visions deciphered.

there was one guy who rested in the spirit thruout the entire session, which was like an hr. he did smth humanly impossible, he held his hands up for the whole time, i cant hold mine up past 4 mins! apparently he was talking to God, he was like a medium, passing msgs to n fro for his grp(my bro was his facil so he told me.)
1) God to us, thru him: He says he loves us all.
2) We to God, thru him: Tell him we love him too
3) Guy resting: God, they say they love you too........ oh, you know? well I didnt... haha, oh God, you're a funny guy.

hahaha, i actually heard the last part when i walked past him.. him calling God a funny guy and i just burst out laughing. it was funny... n i did say b4 that God was a joker...haha

Day 4:
last day...
we had a talk abt running a race, a race ran by David, Israel, Moses, Joshua......so on... Mother Teresa, Pope JP2... and they're passing the baton on to us, and wld we take it? Then the man talking said, all those, who did not get the gifts of tongues, come out and we will pray for u to get it. a grp got out and we started to pray for them, i was still new to this, i cldnt just start talking tongues like tat, so i just praised the Lord and the tongues came. Cheryl(below, she's a non-cat too!!) wasnt convinced that she got the gift but she didnt go out but our facil came to her n prayed for her. And then i received the gift of interpretations... I had heard my facil say in English: "She's got the tongues." And I told my facil, at 1st i thought she really did say it, but if it was her, wldnt she sae, "You"instead of "she"?

Woah... then i cried.. haha... happiness lah..

ok, then everybody got the gift and tongues and the speaker asked those who think that it is their turn to run the race and lead to go out. I stood up, i was ready to run, but i didnt go out, i wasnt ready to lead. The speaker asked God to aniont those that went up and I was at the back (my grp sits at the back.) and i prayed for the ppl who went up. Then, out of nowhere, no warning... I was slained! No one to catch me, i just fell, n it didnt hurt one bit, felt that i slowed down just before i hit the grd..I wasn't the only one who fell spontaneously.. a few others did.. then my 3rd vision...
i didnt tell my grp this coz i knew exactly wad it meant. i saw clouds and Jesus who placed his hand on my head and then he left, smiling.. and i laughed, really... just laughed n teared a bit... when i got up again, i saw alot of ppl on the grd, the facils had prayed over a few. I saw a girl laughing like crazy, like a fellow grp member of mine, Moses(below), haha, he laughed till he got a stomachache when he finally 'woke up'...

haha... all in all, it was a great seminar! we ended with a mass where we ate salt n took on discipleship...haha... took pics b4 waiting for my brothers to finish packing up and cabbing home... was talking abt our experiences the whole way, i wondered wad the cab driver was thinking... haha...

okok, im done, i realised that its really long... haha.. well, like i said, more my benefit than the readers. btw, i signed up for a 6 weeks camp nxt yr.. guess i wont be drama interning..

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